The Mental Battle

So I am going to step on the track tomorrow with the intent to workout at 100%.  Currently my achilles is still a little swollen.  It doesn't hurt all the time.  If I run in flats it doesn't hurt at all.  When I get in the spikes I feel it for the first few strides.  Fuck it.  If it going to implode on me then oh well.  I can't afford to sit around in the pool much  longer.  I know it will never be 100% better.  I would be waiting around for months for that.  I will try to get that wacky laser treatment done tomorrow.  Also looking into acupuncture.  I don't know why my muscles are always tight.  I have been like that since I was young though.  Doctors always made sure to tell me how strong and defined my hamstrings are.  I'm just tired of getting out of bed wondering if the first step is going to feel better than yesterdays.   x