Un-complicated

I have learned when things are a mess it is usually because there is too much junk blocking the way. The hardest mess to clean up is your own.

The Hunt

Some men just have to hunt all the time, and when they find the one they just catch and release. It's not good.

Lightbulbs

I changed the lightbulbs in my apt today. Wow! What a difference some light will make. Not only does it make the place less dismal, but now i have more to clean. Living in the dark is never a good thing.

Friends

Friends are important. Get some.

Going tough

So I thought I had problems. While I have been wallowing in self pity my family is back home preparing for possibly the worst storm to hit the gulf in over a century. I called my mum to talk about what I should do, and how the job market in SoCal is at its worst ever, and she has to call me back because she is moving all the animals and plants in from outside! God has ways of making you listen. they aren't always fair. Actually they never are. I mean if someone has to force you to open your eyes what works better, asking nicely, or a cold bucket of water to the face? I love God. My God doesnt dance around like a fairy. He will slash and burn everything in the way until the point is made. But once the fire stops, the earth can be tilled and life can begin.

On Parole

I have been watching the HBO series OZ lately, and I have drawn some conclusions to prison and track and field. I feel like I have just been released from prison on parole. Yeah it is earlier than i planed, but now i am free to do what I want. BUT, when I was in prison I had a small sense of security. Sure, getting raped, spit on, threatened, and fearing for your life is what you would expect in prison, but you expect it. On the outside, it is worse because you expect things to finally start looking up. How silly. Where do you think you have been the last 10 years? In prison. Do you have any previous experience? No? Then what the fuck are you doing here? Oh, so you think you are to good to work retail? Haha, thats your problem. Good luck even getting a job buddy. We dont need you anyway. Besides the 2012 Olympic Games are 4 years away. No one gives a shit about your situation till then.
So you even though you got out early you still try to hold on to the one thing you know. Track. You try to use it till it ends up perpetuating the whole situation against you. Now you are back inside, but when you get out you already know what awaits you.