What I want

I want to be a firefighter. There, its written down now.

Cars

I love to drive. Its hard for me to put the feeling of tackling a mountain pass, hunting down Ferrari's and sports bikes. The feeling of the engine vibrating as the revolutions climb higher and higher. The purity and focus it takes to put yourself in the moment. Racing towards each corner like a kamikaze on a mission. No fear. The feeling only comes from a place of total comfort. When the vehicle moves as if it your own hands and feet.

There is no actual conscious thinking. It's like a dance with me leading my partner with my hands and feet. It is sublime! All my senses are on high alert. The smell of the brake pads, the squeals of resistance from the tires, my eyes searching for the ideal line.

I do enjoy the car!

RESPECT

Do we as a society still try to earn each others respect? It does not seem that way anymore. In my childhood it started with the respect of the parents.

Our parents as fearful and dominating as they were still had to earn our respect. As a baby we cry out when we need something. Our parents were serving our every needs, but there comes a time when as a parent the "law" is laid down. As a parent of a sly child I know these test very well. A child will try to hold on to that notion that you are there to serve them as long as they can. It is not until the parent lets the child know that they are in charge that the respect is earned. This is evident in the many "spoiled" children today. Their parents thought they could buy there respect with gifts. Those same parents only made it harder for those kids to respect not only others, but themselves as well.

Fast forward to a independent adult. What do we respect? Money? Fame? Power? Morals? I have found that the best way to earn the respect of others is to simply be yourself in totality. You can not waver from who you truly are. For instance, you are 28yr old stock broker from Maryland at a reggae fest. Knowing nothing about reggae and its roots he acts according to what he has seen on TV. Now this guy how potentially has much to offer is instead acting as someone else. You don't always have to fit in to get respect. You just have to fit.

Think about our leaders who have failed us because we thought they misrepresented themselves. Now think about leaders who faced adversity and near certain failure, but soldered on.

Stubborn

Main Entry: stub·born
Pronunciation: \ˈstə-bərn\
Function: adjective
Etymology: Middle English stibourne, stuborn
Date: 14th century
1 a (1) : unreasonably or perversely unyielding : mulish (2) : justifiably unyielding : resolute b : suggestive or typical of a strong stubborn nature
2 : performed or carried on in an unyielding, obstinate, or persistent manner
3 : difficult to handle, manage, or treat
4 : lasting
synonyms see obstinate
— stub·born·ly adverb
— stub·born·ness \-bər(n)-nəs\ noun

Calves Hurt

O. Man My Calves hurt something fierce! How is it that I can run for 20 years and still have weak calves?