Downward Swirl.

Have you ever watched shit go down the toilet?  I have.  It starts of slow and unassuming.   A nonchalant pace, as if it is only a slight disturbance in its rest.  Then the pace quickens, and gravity pulls it down.  Faster, faster, harder, harder, down it goes till it is out of control and all hope is lost for a safe return.  

That's what happens with shit.  Shit just stays there.  People say "Shit happens!" Yeah of course it does, but shit never makes anything happen.  Why, because it doesn't do anything.  Shit at its very best is only the waste of something that could have been spectacular.  To be fair sometimes shit gets a second chance, but you cant shine a turd can you? Nope.  So shit just happens all over again. Down, down, faster this time only to be forgotten before you even walk  out the door.  

So do yourself a favor.  When you feel a bump, pang, quiver, shiver, or thought that your situation is taking a "turn" for the worse, start swimming.  If you don't it will only get worse if you don't move. And you my friend will be forgotten even before the world washes it's hands.

America's First Hydrogen Station

Two blocks from my house.  I heard some balloons pop when I walked by and had the thought that all of Santa monica was going up in an atomic blast!  How safe is this stuff really?

Happy Birthday Joy-Joy

Happy Birthday Joy!  I love you.  I saw you being born.  

Does it Look Like i care?

Am I supposed show that I am not currently happy with my situation so that others will know that i am working towards fixing it?

Or, am I supposed to just be happy with it and let people think i am a looser?  

When I explain whats going on in my life currently I don't get the response " Yeah B you need to get on that."  It is usually " It will be o.k."  

And where is the line between feeling sorry for my self , and just frustration?  I think it is pretty thin.

I'm LOST ?

Your results:
You are Dr. Jack Shephard

You try to help people and do what is upright. You are very vigorous and people look to you for guidance.



Click here to take the Lost Personality Quiz


This sucks, because I am beginning to not like Jack very much. But i can see the resemblance. he is hot headed at times, and always thinks he is doing the best things for everyone.  He lets his emotions cloud his judgement though.  So he ends up regretting decisions he has made.  Oh, and he never tells the woman he loves that he wants to be with her.  He just lets her do her thing with Sawyer instead of fighting for her.  

Come on jack get it together man!  Get them handcuffs and strap Kate to the hatch and make her act right! 

Drawn Into a Fight

I cant stand being drawn into a fight. I guess that's why it's called "drawn", you are just a little cartoon to the one who wants to bicker and argue with you. So stupid. I am trying not to do things like that, but my silly Ego wont stand for it. I have to learn how to control that. I should draw myself into a calm place next time that happens. Plus, you will never win a fight you didn't start. The advantage in war always goes to the one who waits, not the one who advances. So, pick your battles carefully. you may never know, it may be your last.

I had Sex Today

Oh yeah. Daddy likes baby. mmmmmm yeahhhh

EGO- Enemy or Friend?

e·go (g, g)
n. pl. e·gos
1. The self, especially as distinct from the world and other selves.
2. In psychoanalysis, the division of the psyche that is conscious, most immediately controls thought and behavior, and is most in touch with external reality.
3.
a. An exaggerated sense of self-importance; conceit.
b. Appropriate pride in oneself; self-esteem.

ego
Noun
pl egos
1. the part of a person's self that is able to recognize that person as being distinct from other people and things
2. a person's opinion of his or her own worth


I think the ego is just a wolf in sheeps clothing. Constantly driving you to do what it wants by making you think it was your own bright idea. The ultimate con man.

food!

I found some chicken in my freezer.  Hoary for food!  

Things I am Thankful For

I am  Alive

I have been out of this country

I can read

I can write

I am not on drugs

I don't have a terminal illness

Books

I understand music

fans

friends

family

enemies

ice

fire

water

Final Fantasy

Baylor

Gran  Turismo 

optometrist 

legacygt.com

nasioc.com

waves

civil rights

prepaid sim cards

free incoming

skype

bluetooth

digital cameras

Internet

grass

shade

refrigerators

Chapelle's Show

The boondocks

Reason 4.0

Korg Triton

cheap fixes

bootlegs

noise canceling headphones

Napster

mp3

Hollywood

seat belts

canyon roads

indoor karting

rain

sun

boats

vacation

mail

email

text message

love

lust

truth

forgiveness

tact

forensic scientist

dinosaurs

Micheal Crichton 

cartoons

gravity

hope

fights

resolutions

compromise

flying fish

family together

comfortable silence 

understanding

optical mouse

Wii

second chances

how-to guides

list

To whom it may concern,

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Relax

If you can't relax then just do what this guy does.    

Fuck Track!

I hate this Fucking amateur sport! edited because i am a immature coward

Downhill Fun

I haven't been driving in over a year.  Cant be up all night if I am trying to be my best.  But the love is not gone, and I had some of the best time of life with my driving/car buddies.  There is a small group of us that take that road pretty serious.  Serious enough to sweep the dirt off the entire 5 mile stretch of road before we begin runs.   Good times.  

 Here are Joe and Sir Crashalot on an easy run.  Joe is in a BMW e46 M3 and Crash is in a 350z.  He later crashed it (go figure) drifting on the uphill.  He is crazy!  Joe is so smooth it doesn't even look like he is moving fast.  

Fit for a King?

You know you are broke when....

A four course meal consist of:

Saltine crackers

Ramen noodles 

Ham and cheese sandwich

Frozen kool-aid treat

and to drink ?  Watered down kool-aid with a splash of lemon.

Make a List

Feeling stressed? Make a list.  You will be surprised how easy it can be to alleviate that stress with some positive can-do planning. 

Sandwich Bags?

Why does a regular sandwich taste better when it comes out of a sandwich bag at a playground?  

Stop and Think

Do yourself a favor.  Stop and think before you act.

Glasses Punch?

You shouldn't hit a man with glasses on.  Only if you are provoked.  It is rude and embarrassing to the man with glasses.  Plus, you present him with the dilemma of whether to fight back, or go across the room and pick up his glasses.  Not cool.

"Never hit a man with glasses.  Hit him with a baseball bat."  -Homer Simpson 

Rollbar?

I don't know why convertibles don't come equipped with a roll-bar.  That the first thing I would add.  Look at the passenger.  Ouch! 

BIG B Happy

I have been here before.  I think I know now that God wants me to find happiness in the abstract. If I reflect on makes me unhappy 90% of the time, it's either loosing something or the fear of loosing it.  Well, now I say you can have it.   I am not saying that I am going to be a irresponsible wreck and deadbeat dad.  No, I am simply going to choose to be happy that I am alive and can walk out my door every morning and feel the sun on my face.  If for some reason I loose my ability to walk then at least I can watch the sunset.  If i cant see...  

I have an amazing gift, and I want see it reach its zenith.  

400H 1980-2004 Olympics

Gee Maestro

Gee Maestro is criminal intent
Cupboards are bare
And late on Rent
He went to the bank
Embarrassed to smile
And took out a loan
To survive for a while
He sold all he things
Like his car
And his shoes
But he only got pennies
So what should he choose?
To fight or to flight?
Which way should he go?
Should he keep his mouth shut
So no one will know.
But Maestro will manage
As he always does
And he will always remember
Those that he loves/

-Big B

Phone Off

My mobile phone service got disconcerted today.  Now I can no longer bother anyone.  Don't think I even want to turn it back on.  I should get a beeper.  

OMG!!11! Jet Powered Scoot!

Im a big deal

So today while i was doing my workout at UCLA in the hot So Cal sun, this lady walks up to me.

lady: "Hi, whats your name"

me:  "Bayano.  Bayano Kamani."

lady: "You are the most beautiful person I have ever seen."

me:   "Uhhh.... Thanks?"  ( I am too modest. )

It was weird. I mean I am a handsome guy (thanks mom and dad), but I haven't had a complete stranger walk up to me like that.  Plus she was old, so I was even more flattered when she said "ever".  It was nice though.  I guess that was my reward for bringing my coach a cool drink to practice today.  

Sharing is Caring

I am selfish person.  Starting today I will attempt to give to at least one person everyday.  Words of affection and gifts of kindness are all acceptable forms.  Lets see if giving is actually better than receiving.

A Sweetcar I Desire

So I went to a local car meet tonight to hang out with some other car nerds for a while and chop it up.  Car nerd meets are great for a few reason.

1. It gets a bunch of social inept men to meet face to face.

2. A common language is already set in place.  

3. Lets you geek out on things that would have your layman friends second guessing why they put you in their top 8 on myspace.

But there is always the guy that makes all the nerds look cool.  It may be they flashy guy that knows nothing about his car except how much it cost to have everything installed. Or it could be the middle aged gent who drives out in his Caterham Lotus 7 replica but admits to never taking it to the track because it is too expensive.  I meet the later today.

First let me say that all cars are meant to be driven.  Hard.  There are no exceptions to this rule.  And if you have a 70k purpose built 1100lb 210 hp beast, then it should never see under 5k on the tachometer.  This guy went on about how he has this and that, and that his car is so great and expensive, but he says he wont go to a track day because it cost 500 dollars.  I don't know about you, but if I plan to invest 70k of my money in a car that can't haul anything but ass, then I think $500 every couple months shouldn't be an afterthought.  Needless to say when the guy left he got roasted.  But that's how it is.  It was a sweet car though.  x

Chill Pill

"For fast-acting relief, try slowing down." -Big B

I think I need a chill pill.  I've got a feeling that I am starting to annoy people I care about.  Maybe its because I am anxious to run, or just the fact that I miss my loved ones, but I should take some time out.  No one really calls me.  And when I call them it seems like I am interrupting something.  

 Today my physio told me I ask alot of questions.  Well, I just want to know how I can do all I can do while I am not there to take care of myself.  How ill I know if I don't ask?  I would love for people to think highly enough of me to ask me a question pertaining to their well-being.  

I think I just have small anxiety attacks or something.  Now that I think about it.  I'm gonna just chill out then. Everything well be fine.  Too much damn stress.  How am supposed to see 100 living like this?   I can feel the tension in my neck.  I have to release it somehow.  

Ice Massage

On another note. Ice massages work wonders. Try it.

1000 words

I honestly think I am a good guy. I watched this video today of a Lawyer speaking to a pre-law class on how you shouldn't talk to the police. EVER. No matter what you say it can be used AGAINST you in the court of law. Everything you tell the officer can be used against you in court. Crazy thing is that you cant call upon that same officer to bail you out in court. If you ask him to testify on what you told him the other lawyer will object because it is hearsay. Point is shut up or get burned.

My life is like that. Sometimes it seems like I cant do anything right. I talk and I get burned. I dont talk and I am somehow admitting guilt. It's crazy. Actions speak louder than words, but it is usually lost in translation. Whats a guy to do?

Good Workout Today

I had a great workout today. Excellent actually. My tendon was a little sore warming up was was fine once I started running. I did a full workout with now pain. I am pleased. I felt really good. I'm going to ice now.

The Mental Battle

So I am going to step on the track tomorrow with the intent to workout at 100%.  Currently my achilles is still a little swollen.  It doesn't hurt all the time.  If I run in flats it doesn't hurt at all.  When I get in the spikes I feel it for the first few strides.  Fuck it.  If it going to implode on me then oh well.  I can't afford to sit around in the pool much  longer.  I know it will never be 100% better.  I would be waiting around for months for that.  I will try to get that wacky laser treatment done tomorrow.  Also looking into acupuncture.  I don't know why my muscles are always tight.  I have been like that since I was young though.  Doctors always made sure to tell me how strong and defined my hamstrings are.  I'm just tired of getting out of bed wondering if the first step is going to feel better than yesterdays.   x 

My Son

I love my son Bayano.  

The Happening

It is not a good movie.  

Wii Answers Prayers

My lil bro got me a Wii for fathers day!  He is awesome.  I think Che is the most giving person that I know.  I cant think of many times he put himself before others.  I wish I could say the same for myself.  One day he will be a  very good father himself.  I am glad i have a brother like him, and Bayano Jr has him for a Tio.  Thanks Tio Che'!

Still in the Game

Well, in the past week I had my car towed twice, my new mac stolen, Achilles still injured, and a slew of other things that I am trying to forget. Oh, I don't know where my girlfriend is.  So, I am trying to focus on what I need to do.   Run Fast.  Unfortunately, my tendon is keeping from unleashing my furry on the track, also I cant ride my bike or walk like I usually do.  Add on top of that the fact that I am broke and you have one bored B.  If anyone has something to do please let me know.  I am wishing I had cable t.v. now.  I wanted to drive up to S.F. to see Mike in concert, but I cant afford the trip.  Plus, sitting in the car wont help my legs.   I would rather be in Europe bored than here bored.  If my computer wasn't stolen I would do some music.   Ah well.